Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Time for Change

Many of you will have been reading these sporadic posts
during the 6(!) years I've been writing to
Christal Temple friends and others.
In some ways it only seems like yesterday

that Helen and I started
Christal Temple Laughing Church

in our basement apartment
in Mahone Bay, Nova Scotia.

These years have been a time of exploration,

of celebrating sacred mysteries together,
of embodiment exercises and ruminations,
and finding ways of bringing back together
in shamanic-yet-physical reality
what we and a few others have felt
to be our human lie of separation.

The healing processes

have been awesome!



For me, John Overton,
the time has now come to own in me
what has often been an outside demonstration
of inner truths...
Now, at this time, for me on Planet Earth
it is imperative to be the process -
the process of ever-fuller embodiment 
of what I have passionately written about
and what we have celebrated together.

The strange thing is
I don't know how this will happen -
I don't really know what "this" is about!

But, rather than wait for some miracle
which might suddenly come from "above"
and make everything "clear"
I know I have to "own the process" -
and to own it in my living now.

And one very clear way to own the process

is to write my experiences as ME,
and not as Christal Temple
or as some of the other personalities
I've turned into blogs!
(There's nothing wrong with them,
but here I must own ME to be able
to share what is coming through me.)

So,
Christal Temple blog,
just for now,
THANK YOU
and 
au revoir.
(Bigger things are happening!)

You are all so very welcome to share me
on
 

.... and thank you
to all of you who have shared
the Christal Temple journey thus far
in any of the many ways!

Blessings and Love

John O
Christal Temple blog will remain online
- the new content will be on
http://johnmboverton.blogspot.com

And soon, there will be more, here!



Saturday, February 4, 2012

Arriving in a new place on a special day.....

Those of you who know me well will know how little I enjoy that habit of monks and nuns in different spiritual traditions of getting up in the middle of the night to pray! Maybe PostaHouse will have other daily traditions which will be more "enjoyable".

Though a good shamanic journey through the night (your body may stay in one place and your spirit journey into many places) would be a different thing. A soul (or vision) quest perhaps - finding the voice within while sitting silently through the night on a mountainside.

I find it interesting that I shall be arriving in Posta on 22nd February, the day western Christendom "celebrates" Ash Wednesday - I write celebrate in inverted commas because, according to church rules, you're supposed to fast this day which is hardly a cause for celebration; not in my book, anyway! For some reason it's arranged so that I "manage to avoid" the carnival-days. No Italian Shrovetide fun for me this year, it seems!

But, I do feel that there is an interesting aspect to this timing. 

Ash Wednesday is the first day of Lent, a time which commemorates when the prophet Yeshua (better known by his western "Jesus"-name) having just received water-initiation at the hands of his cousin John in the River Jordan, starts a 40-day vision quest in the desert region. To test his mettle, so to speak. "Do you really want to do this?" come the voices in the night!


Jésus assisté par les anges - James Tissot
So, how appropriate that I should be arriving on the day when we "celebrate" the beginning of that famous vision-quest ca 2000 years ago! Here in Posta, my very own vision-quest!

I invite you to imagine what visions you can have about what PostaHouse can do and will be. And, maybe, your own place in this vision.


Blessings

John 


PS Two years ago I wrote this about Living in Alignment. It's on my Crete-blog here http://johnincrete.blogspot.com/2010/02/in-alignment-with-god.html

Monday, January 30, 2012

Ultimate Tantra Summit: Day 11

Day 11: John Overton (that's me!)
on today for ca 36 hrs.


Ultimate Tantra Summit's
Farhana and Alan's headline is...

Do You Go Down? John Overton does..
Day 11 of the Summit: Going DOWN with John.... (?!?!)
Getting endarkened ...(?!??????).... Enjoy!
This is a couple of minutes' preview
of the interview I gave

Began 20th January.
Sign up to hear me (free) here

And also (for a small fee)
to download recordings
of all the other wonderful speakers!

Blessings

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Expanded States of Ecstasy?

Ultimate Tantra Summit has a week to go.
Today it's about expanded states of ecstasy!

They sound good to me!!!!

John
PS My own interview hasn't been scheduled yet,
so if you're a fan, there's still time to get in and hear me!
Sign up here (it's  f*r*e*e  - as Joe Vitale usually says!)

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Ultimate Tantra Summit

Doesn't it sound delicious...
a dozen wise people being interviewed about
what Tantra is (and isn't) for them!

I have been privileged to be part
of this illustrious group.

There are many different paths,
and even more reasons for taking them.
Everything from deep spiritual exploration
to finding ways to intensify the sensual life.

I just have to admit
I LOVE this stuff.
Bringing Heaven and Earth together!

Here is a couple of minutes' preview
of the interview I gave for the series.

If you want to hear it all
and all the other wonderful speakers
you'll just "have to" sign up on the
Ultimate Tantra Summit page

It's free!
Or you can pay for the CD recordings to keep.

Any which way
It starts January 20th.
That's approximately NOW!
So don't delay!

Sign up here now!
You've nothing to lose -
and maybe a wealth of wisdom to gain!

This is the snippet from my interview...


To hear the rest of it
and all the other wonderful people
sign up here

Enjoy!
I know I did!

Blessings

John

Friday, December 16, 2011

Really Knowing Earth, Divinity and Our own Place

Talking change?

I suspect that most people on this planet
would agree that we are living in challenging times.

Whether we buy into conspiracy theories or not,
whether we are noticeably affected by Earth changes or not,
whether it is we ourselves or people we know and love
who have had their lives and livelihoods upturned
by economic, political, or other type of stricture,
daily we can see signs that Life-as-we-know-it is changing.

And, for better or for worse, 
we ourselves are being changed, too.
This is a tide we cannot resist.


There is a process which is predominant in our western culture...
 become aware of a "problem" ->
have discussions and work out possible "solutions" ->
try to put the "best" solution(s) into practice
and later..
change and/or "correct/modify" the "solutions"
when they don't seem to be working as well as we'd hoped.

Publicly, this process has been done for centuries
by the people who have been given 
(or, more often, have taken) the authority to do it;
It is done predominantly "in the head" 
and then talked/written about
until some kind of decision is reached 
- hopefully, in agreement -
a decision which is then enforced at some level.
Most of us use the same process to reach agreement at home.

But much of the time this process doesn't work.
Seldom does it seem to give 
the long-term results we say we desire.
People and nature are hurt in the enforcement.
Yet we continue to use the process.

Any pattern of discussing/talking which never really succeeds
and any method of enforcement 
which doesn't really ever give the desired result
will, sooner or later, lead to a mind/body split
and a break-up of society;
our control-processes and our gut-feelings
become permanently out-of-sync,
leading to national/community/family/personal sickness.
And no amount of "surgery" 
- whether political or medical or psychological -
or "drugs"  
-whether TV/computer-entertainment or things we ingest -
can be more than a temporary fix.

~~~~~~~~~~~

One of the interesting things about the Occupy movement
is that it does not have a unified agenda 
- no common mental construct.
Its supposed weakness 
- that many people are motivated to join in 
by responding to a feeling of just "being called" -
is actually in many ways its greatest strength;
yes, there are discussions, 
but since there is no common agenda
there can be no absolute decisions to be reached -
only a flow of change to be part of!

"Trust the process!"

In the ancient hidden practices of Left-hand tantra,
there was a recurring theme of
daring to "allow the unthinkable"
in order to reach a deeper Knowing (in the Biblical sense!)
This was the Knowing which could not be defined,
something which could only be experienced
by suspending the rules and habits of ordinary living.
As is fairly obvious from the news in our mass media,
connecting with indefineable Knowing  
is not a predominant way
for our modern politicians and doctors!
Yet allowing and conjuring
the pathways into indefineable Knowing  
is what ancient cultures have used for milennia
to come into contact with and then effect 
processes of deep and potent transformation.
These process are not only "divinely-inspired";
they are Earth-friendly and People-friendly.
And they are still being practised in modified ways
by modern indigenous shamans, spiritual mystics,
alternative healers and visionary leaders today
to enable a body-experience 
of being part of desired change.

Bradford Keeney demonstrates one way to access the Knowing
in this video-clip
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sGt1L7QXSDw
What I feel Bradford Keeney is sharing here is

As we come to allow Knowing to be felt by our bodies, 
so the process of change is allowed to happen in us.
We cannot think it or discuss it into being,
but we can align with its process already begun in us
and by extension through us into the world,
- in connection with us and everything.
It is a pattern of process which develops
from the inside -
the more we trust it, the easier it comes.

This Knowing is what we in everyday terms 
might call a non-knowing, an emptiness, 
an open book with no pre-meditated plot.

To be in this open space takes courage 
and a willingness to be vulnerable,
two ways of being not particularly prevalent
in mainstream public life today!
(After all, can real vulnerability and honest
not-wanting/looking-for "solutions and answers" 
win you an election in today's climate?!?)

~~~~~~~~~~~

Trying to solve a problem using the same methods
which brought the problem in the first place
is seen by modern prophets of change
as a waste of time and energy.

Yet, even among those of us who profess
deeper connections and understandings
there seems to be a reluctance to let go of
the discussion/enforcement model
as our "best solution" for humanity's 
and the world's perceived problems.

Here I would like to share a deeper longing.

There is an intense desire in me to see
today's political green movement  
more in-tune with the kind of body-connection,
the not-knowing, that is shown 
in Badford Keeney's video.
And in those of us who espouse
divine connection and healing through
many-levelled body-awareness and practice 
I long for the greater embodied recognition
of the value of irresistable awe -
like when we are first in love,
blissfully discovering without needing to know why;
to be, if you will, in the delicious
"I'm a cosmic moron"-space
(like those fools for God of old.)

Maybe, by not having any "solutions"
but by being willing and daring to be limitless
in our experience of life (what a concept!)
we can open ourselves into  
allowing healing to happen -
on its own terms, in its own way,
a healing which in its absolute Essence
knows its own process
as an integral part of the fabric of Creation.

What a relief to be able to hand over our deepest worry
and yet be Co-creative with Life itself!

Let's SHAKE!

John O

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

GoddleFub and a tiny green planet on the edge of an amazing galaxy

Once upon a time
GoddleFub looked down from the Heavens
at a tiny green planet on the very outskirts
of Galaxy MIC666HelStar7LO
and decided it was time for an experiment.
The people of the tiny green planet
were becoming very sure of their own magnificence
(which, GoddleFub thought, was a "GOOD" thing)
but they were losing that connection to
"important pastimes which give Life meaning"
(which, GoddleFub felt, would be detrimental
the the planet's further development.)

So GoddleFub gave inspiriation to some planetlings
on one of the larger continents,
who came up with an idea for helping
people connect with each other
by pressing black things on a metal board
which most of the planetlings now had in their homes.

Not exactly Michaelangelo's Creation of Adam, Simpsons-style
GoddleFub's experiment was this...
first to make it seem as though the metal-board connectors
(we'll call them MBC's, for convenience's sake)
were an amazing answer to deep-held yearnings
which the planetlings felt they had....
so that nearly every planetling made sure
that they got one.. (some even had several!)

GoddleFub then inspired a couple of planetlings
on the same continent to start a club -
using the MBC's which nearly all now had.
How the planetlings flocked -
especially since the club was free to join for all.

GoddleFub waited until the planetlings had forgotten
what life had been like without the MBC's and the club.......
now it seemed to them as though the club was the deepest experience
one could have as a planetling.

GoddleFub's next move was ingenious,
as befitting an extraordinary High-Powered Being (HPB)
- GoddleFub put the idea into the club's creators
to keep changing the club, and what the club looked like
when the planetlings touched their MBC's,
so each time they were just getting used to a pattern
the creators changed everything drastically.

Finally, HPB GoddleFub moved the club's creators
to turn the whole club inside out,
the look of it, what it did, everything.

Well, you can hardly imagine...
there was general howl of agony and rage and frustration....
I mean, how DARE the club's creators
do something so unfair?

GoddleFub was sad.

Why?
Because the experiment was to show that
GoddleFub wasn't the only HPB -
that on the green planet on the very outskirts
of Galaxy MIC666HelStar7LO
there might in fact be real HPB's too,
perhaps not fully-fledged, but nonetheless
HPB's in the making -
God-like creatures who would, in general,
be able to see which things had galactic importance
and which things did not.
And now GoddleFub knew it would be a long time
before there were any real HPB's there
on THAT tiny green planet.

So GoddleFub turned attention to another galaxy,
to another, rather similar planet on the very outskirts
of an amazing galaxy with a huge cloud of stars
some of these planetlings called "the Milky Way."

GoddleFub repeated the experiment.

It was nearly the same.
The MCB's had a special name and there were
funny small metal things which the planetlings
held up to their hearing-apparatus to speak
to each other..
GoodleFub was pretty sure this time.
"When the club starts and everyone joins
and then when it all goes wrong,
they'll all just leave without a worry.
And THAT will prove to me that
I'm not the only HPB for Universes around!"

And sure enough, there came the moment when
the club and the machines were all-at-odds....

... and the planetlings on that other tiny green planet
on the outskirts of the Milky Way galaxy
just .....

(to be continued...... maybe....)

Friday, September 16, 2011

The Future of Now - rediscovering Compassionate Personal Cosmic Power

So you've seen the latest scare-you-stupid YouTube videos
and read David Icke's dire predictions....
and desperately tried to get the "truth" about Elenin
(was it a comet or an "Illuminati"-arranged hologram spectre?)
and you're trying to find out how to feel secure
while everything is either closing in
or crashing around you ......

Welcome to the club!

AND NOW FOR SOMETHING COMPLETELY DIFFERENT!!!!


fanfare ...... ♫♪♫♪♫♪!!!!

Allow me to present to you
THE LATEST and MOST UPDATED VOYAGE OF YOU

It doesn't have to look like this
Joachim Patinir: Überfahrt in die Unterwelt


  .....unless this is what you really want!
(... paddling in a leaking boat, all on your ownsome
over the river-of-deathly-experiences!) 

YOU ARE NOT ALONE!
Believe it or not, but
there are people "out there" who are just longing
to be part of a common experience of doing "something else"
so that a new, exciting REALITY (Yes! It's real!)
can be formed - personally, communally and more! 


What is required?

Well, you don't need a credit card...
You don't need to subscribe to anything...
You don't need to say you'll believe and trust in anything...

... and there is no catch, no price-tag.


What you "need" to do is breathe
and be more of who you truly are.


Yes, you can do this with an intimate partner ...
agree on a space of absolute communion
without limits in fullest trust and integrity.

You can also do this in a group -
people you trust and who
really rely on one another.

But you can also do this yourself
without anyone else present.


And what do you do?


NOTHING!


You allow everything and do nothing.

You breathe.
And allow the new you -
the new You-niverse -
to arise in you.

If you find you're thinking - OK!
If you find you're desirous - OK!
If you find you're sad or scared - OK!
If you're angry or fidgeting - OK!
(etc.  I think you understand...
you just ALLOW!
... and follow, if you wish!)


And then....
after a while....


see 
and FEEL the NEW WORLD
exactly as you'd love it to be..

and then.. 
KNOW it as TRUE.


Breathe it into Being.


That's all.


Forget Elenin.
Ignore David Icke (with a thankful nod!)
Feel sympathy for the scarediheads of Wall St.
Forgive the Illuminati
(.. "they know not what they do")
and breathe out.

And tomorrow...
watch for all those fantastic "flukes"
as miracles start to happen
in Your Life .....


And if you desire for fellow-travellers,
log in to your Facebook or Twitter account
and dare to tell them about your journey....

(You could go down to the local Farmers' Market
and start dancing, if you prefer!)


Trust that 
your journey is known
and
your desire is seen and felt.
And be ready to say "YES!"
when you otherwise might have said
a habitual "No!"



That's all!

Ready?

En-JOY!

Friday, October 15, 2010

Money Abundance, Passion, Creativity and ENJOYMENT

Resonance Repatterner Liz Tobin
gave an extraordinary webinar yesterday evening
about how we can only heal our money dilemma
in co-operation with and compassion for
everyone else.

The good news is that through doing this
we have the chance to heal our own financial challenges
with very real, practical results in this physical world!

She talks about our hidden financial archetypes,
(see this page www.liztobin.com/tma !) and,
at the end of the broadcast, links this to work on
our PASSION, CREATIVITY and ENJOYMENT!


I find her insights so deep, so wise.

The work she does in the group
I can feel the effects of in my BODY  
long after the session is over.

These webinars/sessions change things for me -
I can manifest what I know so much more easily,
because my body is not giving me
sub-conscious (and often so strong) counter-orders!

If you enjoy body-work and heartily desire
the healing of your own financial situation
in aligment with the healing of mankind's
huge, financial disparity-money-knot,
and playing and working towards
the manifestation of enjoyment-in-abundance,
then this webinar is for you.

Or just go to Liz's site and read for yourself
the miracles she is helping people to bring about!

Here is the link to the webinar...

May your life and the lives of all
be blest with wonderful Abundance
in every aspect!

John O

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

The Ordination/Priesting of Women and Pope Benedict

Pope Benedict has declared
the Ordination of Women
by Roman Catholic Bishops
a crime comparable to
child-molestation 
by Catholic priests!

Any bishop who dares flout this papal declaration
will be referred to the modern-day version of
the INQUISITION 
for "punishment."

For one independent bishop
this has been just "too much."
Following his conscience
he has taken a drastic step.


This is not just of general interest to me.

Helen is in discernment process towards priesthood,
and I am studying to become a priest
in the independent ("heretical") lineage
led by this bishop, Bishop Keizer.

Bishop Keizer's action
with the support of his fellow bishops
though perhaps seemingly insignificant on the world stage
is courageous, and full of spiritual power.

The Inquisition's ways 
of dealing with heretics
- even those who are "outside"
the walls of its own church -
are well-known;  
Bishop Keizer is worthy of
our deepest prayers 
and support.

May God keep him safe from all forms of harm
and increase in him the Holiest Spirit
of Wisdom, Courage, Peace and his soul's Passion.

Blessings

John O

PS Bishop Keizer's blog is here

Sunday, July 4, 2010

The Flowers of the Beauty of Summer, the Mexican Gulf Disaster and God's Power in us

In the Old Testament there is a striking passage 
from the prophet Habbakuk,
which in its setting by CV Stanford seems to me
to bring the worlds together and
demand of us that we take our God-powers seriously
and in fervent prayer and absolute 3-D determination
reclaim our respect for and co-operation with Earth. 

Here is the link ..
the sheet music and the piece
sung with vibrant passion...

I feel the "Lord" in my cells, in my bones
and ready to spring me into action
way beyond what I ever thought possible.

Miracle Time!

And here below is the text:

Blessings

John O


For lo I raise up that bitter and hasty nation,
Which march thro' the breadth of the earth,
To possess the dwelling places that are not theirs.
They are terrible and dreadful,
Their judgment and their dignity proceed from themselves.
Their horses also are swifter than leopards,
And are more fierce than the evening wolves.
And their horsemen spread themselves,
Yea, their horsemen come from far.
They fly as an eagle that hasteth to devour,
They come all of them for violence;
Their faces are set as the east-wind,
And they gather captives as the sand.
Yea, he scoffeth at kings,
And princes are a derision unto him.
For he heapeth up dust and taketh it.
Then shall he sweep by as a wind that shall pass over,
And be guilty,
Even he, whose might is his God.
Art not Thou from everlasting,
O Lord, my God, mine Holy One?
We shall not die.
O Lord, thou hast ordained him for judgment,
And thou, O Rock hast established him for correction.
I will stand upon my watch and set me upon the tower,
And look forth to see what he will say to me,
And what I shall answer concerning my complaint.
And the Lord answered me and said:
The vision is yet for the appointed time,
And it hasteth toward the end, and shall not lie,
Tho' it tarry, wait for it, because it will surely come.
For the earth shall be filled
with the knowledge of the glory of the Lord,
As the waters cover the sea.
But the Lord is in his holy temple:
Let all the earth keep silence before Him.
 The Awesomeness of Creation!

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Ascension Day

As readers of this blog may know
Ascension Day (this year 13th May)
is one of my favourite days ..
It celebrates in Christian tradition
the lifting up - through the cloud into "Heaven" -
of the Risen Christ, 40 days after Resurrection.

The Ascension of Jesus (from Wikipedia)

Though this event in itself is full
of meaning and mystical experience,
there are also deeper, esoteric meanings
which I feel are important for
personal and global community transformation.
 Among these are the parallels with the Microcosmic Orbit
- the inner which reflects the outer.

One of the most important aspects of Christianity
is God's incarnation (flesh-becoming) in Jesus.
This represents the Enfleshment of Absolute Divinity,
which, in the human experience of Jesus
eventually led to a horrific death, and,
in the words of the Apostles' Creed,
the after-death experience of the descent into Hell!
(Something for those scared by Christian fundamentalists
to take great comfort from!)
This descent into Hell is then transmuted into
Rebirth through Resurrection, and, eventually,
into the taking up of all aspects of human life
back into the "Heavenly realms" -
presumably with an amazing, cosmic party,
to celebrate the Homecoming of the Beloved,
and the re-connection, in all dimensions and
at all levels of all life, of divine energy everywhere!

The Microcosmic Orbit invites us to remember
in our own bodies the reality of connection,
and the absolute Reality of our resting in God
in everything which happens to us at every level
of experience!

Let us celebrate and enjoy this feast-day,
for it is a mirror of the way we are all woven together
in the vibration of God, down and up, all at once!

In love, gratitude and vibrating truth

John O

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

The Tantric Wisdom of Volcanic Life

Eyjafjallajökull has brought in its wake
everything from magnificent images to
disturbing stories and pictures of
a dark, airless, frightening world where
frustration over changed travel plans
and having to wait without being told anything
could be the least of our worries.


As with events like those of September 2001,
Doomsday TV-talk and futuristic Armageddon-type movies
suddenly start coming to life in the midst of
our ordinary "safe" reality, showing us
not just our human vulnerability and smallness,
but the transient nature of the Earth-system
upon which all our lives seem to be dependent.

And for those of us who have been exploring
Self-realization or esoteric paths to other realities,
and are accustomed to practices which can attract
powerful personal change for ourselves and others,
such events cut to the core of our supposed Knowing.

They also prompt deep questions about our attempts
to change the course of the events of our lives -

What is the wider picture?
What will the things I do have for effect on others?
What is the extent I can play God?

Television newscasting is something I avoid as much as possible,
but I've been finding myself following volcanic ash updates
and the personal testimonies of reporters and travellers,
etching extraordinary stories and pictures on my mind.

And once again the same realization has become apparent -
in some way it seems NECESSARY for humans to experience
extraordinary events which turn ordinary life upside down,
in order for our deeper humanity and humility to break through
.

Another realization, which comes over time as events unfold,
is that the GIFTS of these events in so many ways outweigh
the discomfort, distress and possible long-term desolation
which they bring; we are "forced" back into human connection

and into connection with the world we live in day-by-day.



And we cannot avoid the questions of our own empowerment
in the wider context of the ways the Universe has
its very own Agenda, and Reason and Ways of Being,
in a drama in which WE are NOT the leading character!

Which brings me back to the title of this blog:
The Tantric Wisdom of Volcanic Life

The ancient art of Tantra is about the weave of EVERYTHING -
nothing left out!

Our modern life is mainly about the complete opposite -
the SEPARATION of everything, and especially of people
into "life-boxes" disconnected from one another.

But when erupting volcanoes or crashing aircraft or Death
break into our self-protected world, turning it upside down,
our boxes crumple and our fellow-human-ness comes back.

Tantra is also about the deepest of Presence, one with another.

Suppose we each were to start practising that deepest Presence
with one another NOW, in widening areas of our lives, so that
we began to re-connect more and more to the Weave of Life;
maybe we would need physically to travel less, and more
would engage in mutual journeys into one another's human-ness;
and maybe we would be less appalled at our own vulnerability
when the ever-changing Nature of Life surprised us.

And maybe, just as in deep Tantric practice, we would learn
to Ride the Wave of Existence, unshielded and expectant,
like those extraordinary "extreme sport" surfboarders 

revelling in rough seas. How passionate and alive!
Picture from Wikipedia

In this "being-with-what-unfolds"-learning to ride, there is
deep, divine empowerment, and amazing excitement and fun.

Time to learn the Art of Receiving!

Blessings

John O


 
More eruption images here

Sunday, March 7, 2010

Yearning


I have never considered that "looking back"
and longing for former times, was a particularly
constructive occupation in life. But quite often
I have caught myself "trying to work things out"..
- Why did X happen?
- What was the "point" of that?
and similar questions.
After all, learning from the past is a very useful thing,
especially if we wish to transform our lives!

The past few weeks I've found myself looking backwards again,
this time (I hope) from a deeper level of awareness;
partly in order to take a renewed look at
the possible wisdom past experiences may have for me
from another vantage-point in my own space-time,
and partly to re-visit my own resurrected memories
in the light of what I have been studying recently -
an eclectic mix of everything from String Theory,
Kabala & the Essenes via David Wilcock & Gregg Braden,
to movements within Anglican Christendom like
the formation of The Anglican Church in North America,
and how all of these experiences together might
connect with my immersion in the Anglo-Catholicism
of the churches I was so intimately part of in my youth.


All Saints' Day at All Saints, Margaret Street, London, UK

I had been googling the web and came across
this curious title for a blog entry:

I was immediately triggered into action!
Following the links I found a striking book-title,
a book that turned out to be
available for download
as a pdf:
The Church Impotent:
The Feminization of Christianity
by
Leon J Podles


Strange feelings in my stomach - I just had to start reading this!!!
As it turned out, the first chapter gave me
what I was unconsciously seeking -
not that I agreed with Leon Podles, but he helped me
start a process towards some kind of unifying feeling (or theory?)
that might perhaps be able to encompass the disparate
claims on my inner loyalty with regard to
- deeply sacred liturgy connecting time and space
( or shamanic ancestral lineage and tradition - if you will)

- affirming sexual difference while embracing
the Oneness and utter Validity of all genders
(One of Shantam Nityama's constant themes)

- understanding the social conditioning which may have
influenced my "choice" of Life Purpose
(see http://www.christaltemple.com/John_Overton.htm )

and


- my preoccupation with both the body and
the non-physical as equal spiritual dimensions
(rather than the current mind-preocupation "over" the body.)

I also read a paper by David Hilliard called
UnEnglish & Unmanly: Anglo-Catholicism & Homosexuality
and found myself suddenly understanding hitherto
half-veiled aspects of my childhood's church experiences -
the sacred crucible which intertwined with my own
unbridled inner imaginative childhood worlds.

50 years ago I was aware of sexuality between males
in these Anglo-Catholic churches, but since the world of
Church and choir-school and private school were such
enclosed spaces and, in many ways, so safe from outside harm,
it didn't feel as tho' this sexual expression was especially unnatural.
And, a few years later in private school,
I noticed that
when otherwise enclosed teenage boys were "let out"
many of them "roamed the village" in search of female company!
The only people who seemed outwardly concerned that
there might be sexual goings-on between the "inmates"
were priests and teachers who the child in me felt to be
"odd in some way" - though I couldn't put my finger on
what this "oddity" might be.

What I was acutely aware of, was a feeling of the way
everyone in these enclosed worlds seemed to have
a mission to "do it better", "properly" or "more completely"
- as though the outside world of "ordinary Anglicanism"
and the "ordinary schools" didn't either know or, perhaps,
didn't wish to know the deeper truths of what they were doing,
and the "proper practices" (like in the esoteric societies)
which were the portals into the veiled worlds of truth "beyond."

When I read David Hillard's paper, I was immediately
struck by an extraordinary paradox which I so recognized
but had forgotten beneath piles of "ordinary living."
The paradox was that of the genuine male homosexual Christian
who fled to and immersed himself in the rituals and faith-life
of a church which held that almost all forms of sexuality
were forbidden by God except in child-bearing marriage.

Why?

Because their YEARNING was given space to grow among
accepting others who were in exactly the same predicament.
And more, there was a place to sublimate this yearning in the
ever-increasing ecstasy in the ritual service of God
where the music and ceremonies, the smells and postures,
the incantations and processions and bowings and knee-bending
allowed the BODY to experience Divine Bliss here and now!

I can assure anyone who doesn't know what this feels like
that real Anglo-Catholic Divine Worship experience can be
as ecstatic an experience as any sexual orgasm!
(It isn't just the charismatic fundamentalists who "know" this!)
These experiences are "mystical states" just like the
medieval mystic saints write of (especially the women!)
Here we're experiencing Divine Comm-union with God.

I have often wondered what the real reason was
for the "high church" factions of Anglicanism to reject
the idea of male-female equality within the priesthood.
Claiming that Jesus only had 12 male disciples,
when the women round him had such a prominent role,
does not really sound or feel totally genuine.

It was recently, when the Church of England decided
that women were to be eligible also to become Bishops,
that I suddenly understood the deeper unspoken reason
for the mass desperation among "orthodox" Anglo-Catholics.

Their beloved safe havens were no longer "safe"!

And this, in turn, meant nowhere to go to express or sublimate
the inner yearning to do it better with every fibre of one's body!

After 30 years in Sweden, I know may women who are priests -
and now in both the Anglican and Lutheran churches.
Many of them are, in my humble opinion, far more suited
to their ministry than some of the male priests I know,
and I believe deeply that they have been called by God.
Yet I mourn the marginalising of the male Anglo-Catholic sanctuary.

I do not believe that the traditional view of sexuality held
by the churches (almost certainly because of St Paul's
self-attested
control and self-denial of his own sexuality)
is in true accordance with God's wider vision and wisdom.
Yet I mourn the taking-away of the excitement and vibration
of places where a specific and very special longing to "keep chaste"
in total acknowledgement of one's sexuality, may be honoured
and its energy formed into something even greater -
the opportunity to taste and know the Divine in ritual worship.
Yes - "know" God in the "biblical sense"!

Single-mindedness and focus (however often one may fail,
or fall "into temptation" to give up and give in) are not
easy virtues to live up to, outside in a seemingly hostile world,
when one is accustomed to a safe church other-wordly haven.
Deep down I feel deep admiration for those who will not move
from their conviction, even if it means losing jobs or "having to"
change churches to find a second home. And I must express
gratitude to them for their part in my own mystical experiences.

If you've read this far, you may be wondering how this all
relates to David Willcock and Nityama and Gregg Braden,
and to modern astrophysics as in String Theory.

The key to this is the 2012 Myth.

No, not "myth as in untruth" but
"Myth as a tool for deep alchemical storytelling"
where, the unravelling and knowing of ever-deepening truth
not just in one's mind but inside one's body,
at the same time as becoming more and more "divine"
is living-life-as-a-ceremony-of-connectedness-with-God
as it becomes totally transformed and new and fulfilled.

And this is exactly what my childhood Anglo-Catholic friends
were tasting the first-fruits of, and longing for
at ever deeper levels!

I will explain in the next blog-post.

Blessings

John